Health

Welcome Sleep Back Into Your Life After A Loss

January 8, 2019 By Lisa Bain

A guest post by Sara Bailey of thewidow.net.

I’ve struggled with insomnia and sleep issues since the hubs died, and can personally relate to everything Sara says here. Self-care is critically important, and lack of sleep impacts more than just our cognitive processing. I hope you find her tips as helpful as I did.

XOXO,
The Wandering Widow
Live Now. Dream Big. Love Fierce.

Welcome Sleep Back Into Your Life After A Loss

Insomnia is a common problem for those who’ve lost a spouse as they toss and turn throughout the night, grappling with intense emotions of anger, grief, and fear. Moreover, that lack of sleep can lead to more serious health problems, such as a weakened immune system, high blood pressure, and an increased risk of diabetes.

It’s time to put an end to this with self-care. Practicing good self-care means focusing on your well-being through eating well, exercising, and finding ways to relax before bed. Here’s a closer look at what you need to do.

Address Your Diet

There are a number of foods to avoid, particularly chocolate or anything else with too much caffeine or sugar, which should never be eaten in the evening or late afternoon. The same goes for items high in fat, such as burgers and pizza, which could cause indigestion. Instead, have a dinner rich in vegetables, lean protein, and whole grains.

Get More Exercise

Physical activity relieves stress while raising your body temperature. When it drops back down, that signals to your mind that it’s time to relax so you remain calm throughout the day and into the later hours. How you break a sweat depends on what you enjoy; for example, you could go for an early morning run or take a spinning class in the evening. Here’s the important part: The more you enjoy the activity, the more you’re likely to repeat it.

Form a Routine

This is crucial for ensuring you get to enough quality sleep regularly rather than slipping back into unhealthy patterns after a few days. Set a regular bedtime and stick to it, even on the weekends, so your body maintains a healthy circadian rhythm. To help things along, schedule relaxing activities in the evening to make sure you’re drowsy when the lights go out.

Take an Evening Shower

A nice shower is definitely one thing you should add to that evening schedule. Dowsing your body with warm water has a similar effect as exercising: Your body heats up and then cools down again, slowing your heartbeat and breathing rate, explains a writer with Lifehacker. This tells your body it’s time for sleep.

Drink an Infusion

However, going to bed right after a hot shower isn’t a great idea. As mentioned, your body needs at least 90 minutes to cool down, so use that time to drink an herbal infusion. Chamomile, Linden, or rosemary will delight your taste buds while also soothing your mind.

Pick Up a Book

According to a scientist speaking with Elite Daily, it takes only six minutes of reading for significant relaxation, thus preparing you for a night of restful slumber. It’s a major antidote to stress and a wonderful addition to the evening routine you’re crafting.

Tune Out

Now to address what you shouldn’t do in the evening. Besides the aforementioned caffeine and sugar, say “no” to digital devices such as your smartphone and laptop. They emit a constant stream of blue light that mimics the effects of the sun when you’re supposed to be dozing off. Besides, you’ve got a good book to read anyway.

Change Your Mattress

The mattress you’re sleeping on may be a little too old or does not match your sleeping position. There are four basic types: innerspring, memory foam, latex, and airbed. If you lie on your side to fall asleep, then memory foam would be the best, whereas innerspring and airbed serve better for stomach sleepers. Find what works best for you.

Explore Different Sleep Technologies

If you’re going to change the mattress, go one step further and look into gadgets that could help you successfully drift off to sleep. Stay away from products whose claim to fame isn’t backed by sound scientific research. What might work is an alarm clock that also emits sleep-inducing light and sound to send you off to dreamland.

Hopefully, these tips should have you dozing off soon enough so you can avoid the worst consequences of insomnia and get back some of that youthful energy you need to forge ahead. Good luck — and sweet dreams.

The Group: Seven Widowed Fathers Reimagine Life (A Book Review)

August 28, 2018 By Lisa Bain

The healing power of even the most microscopic exchange with someone who knows in a flash precisely what you’re talking about because she experienced that thing too cannot be overestimated.
Cheryl Strayed

The Group: Seven Widowed Fathers Reimagine Life, by Donald L. Rosenstein and Justin M. Yopp

DISCLAIMER: I don’t receive any proceeds from the sale of this book, even if you use the link above. Proceeds from the book go back to supporting WidowedParent.org. Donations are also accepted on their website.

Why A Book Review?

When I was approached by Dr. Justin Yopp about reviewing their book, I was hesitant. The Group came out of a project for widowed fathers. I’m a childless widow, and wasn’t sure I was the right demographic. Dr. Yopp assured me that while their project, and the book that was born from it, was originally for widowed fathers, their scope had expanded significantly. You know me, I’m game to take a look at anything that deals with grief.

Coincidentally (or not, since I don’t believe in coincidences), at the same time Dr. Yopp contacted me, I became aware of two families in the Boise area that will be dealing with this all too soon. At this exact moment, two young moms are losing their battles with cancer and will be leaving their grieving husbands behind to raise their young children alone in a society that doesn’t understand or acknowledge grief. (F*k cancer!) My copy of the book will find a new home when the time is right.

The Group chronicles the grief journey of seven widowed fathers as they figured out their new reality together, including dealing with the challenges of learning how to be a sole parent (not to be confused with single parenting) and deal with their grief at the same time. I cried through a bunch of it. The pain these men endured wasn’t so different from my own.

While there aren’t many resources available for Widows with children, the resources for widowed fathers are practically non-existent. Or were until the University of North Carolina Chapel Hill team took it on. As much time as I’ve spent staring grief down over the last two years, there were some points and perspectives in the book that took me by surprise.

Grief or Bereavement

The distinction between grief and bereavement bitch-slapped me into re-evaluating many of the grief groups I belong to. I was forced to rethink how I identify with, and describe, grief. They write, “Whereas grief and mourning can follow the loss of anyone or anything considered meaningful, the term “bereavement” is used only in the context of death.”

Whoah, insert mind blown emoji here. I am one of the grieving. But I am also in the smaller group of the bereaved. It may seem like an insignificant distinction, but for the bereaved, it’s a chasm bigger than the Grand Canyon. Don’t believe me? Just watch what happens in a generic grief group when someone compares breaking up with their boyfriend, or a divorce, to the death of a spouse. Yowzas.

The Dual Process Model

If you’ve been reading for a while, you’ve heard me say the Kübler-Ross Five Stages of Grief Model was the worst thing to happen to the grieving. The false expectations of linear grief recovery apply an impossible burden on the Widow after the death of her spouse. This was the first reference I’d seen to the Dual Process Model, developed by Dr. Margaret Stroebe and Dr. Henk Schut from Utrecht University in the Netherlands.

Unlike the linear Kübler-Ross Model, the Dual Process Model describes how the bereaved deal with two types of grief stressors: loss-oriented and restoration-oriented, and that we oscillate between both. I was so intrigued I asked Dr. Yopp to send me the paper, and you’ll read more about this in a future post.

Grief Isn’t a Mental Illness

“Pathologizing grief as a psychiatric condition would stigmatize a common and normal human reaction.”

Hallelujah and thank you! To all the medical doctors out there who try to prescribe grief away, please stop it! Grief can’t be cured or fixed, only survived. I’ve written about “complicated grief” a specific condition, in previous posts, and that’s not what I’m talking about here. I’m talking about doctors who act like a W should be better in a few weeks, and instantly grab their prescription pad to magic the pain away. (I’m the first to admit many people can be helped with pharmaceuticals, but prescribing anti-fill-in-the-blanks to the bereaved without counseling should be grounds for malpractice.)

The Future

At the end of the book I was rooting for all of the Widowers as they put their pieces back together in their new WE to ME realities. Despite being a childless Widow, I felt a kinship with these men that I’d never met. I’m so grateful that the cancer clinic decided to continue to provide the support they did, and start the conversation about the needs of widowed parents. For more information on their work, visit www.widowedparent.org.

XOXO,
The Wandering Widow
Live Now. Dream Big. Love Fierce.

PRO TIP:

Thinking about getting this book for a widowed father? Everyone is different, but I’d wait at least a few weeks after the funeral, maybe even longer. And avoid the “Hey, you need this,” which we tend to receive as “You suck at grief and survival and being a human being, which is why you need this.” Instead, try something like, “My friend Lisa blogs about grief and bereavement, and she recommended this book. You don’t have to read it now, or ever, but I wanted you to have it just in case. I love you.”

POST SOUNDTRACK

Song for Dad, Keith Urban

Lately I’ve been noticing
I say the same things he used to say
And I even find myself acting the very same way
I tap my fingers on the table
To the rhythm in my soul
And I jingle the car keys
When I’m ready to go
When I look in the mirror
He’s right there in my eyes
Starin’ back at me and I realize

The older I get
The more I can see
How much he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
A little more of my father in me

There were times I thought he was bein’
Just a little bit hard on me
But now I understand he was makin’ me
Become the man he knew that I could be
In everything he ever did
He always did with love
And I’m proud today to say I’m his son
When somebody says I hope I get to meet your dad
I just smile and say you already have

He’s in my eyes
My heart, my soul
My hands, my pride
And when I feel alone

And I think I can’t go on
I hear him sayin’ “Son you’ll be alright”
Everything’s gonna be alright”
Yes it is

The older I get
The more I can see
That he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
Oh I hope I see
I hope everyday I see
A little more of my father in me

Someone Take Care of Me. Oh Wait, I’m Someone.

January 29, 2018 By Lisa Bain

The sooner you accept the fact that you have to take care of yourself,
the better it will be. He’s gone.
You used to know how to do this. You can do it again.
Put your big girl panties on and get the f@#$ out of bed.
You know he’d tell you the same thing, so just do it.
Or roll over, give up and die. It’s your choice. Own it.
Lisa Bain, The Life After Journals

Whenever I feel myself getting extra emotional and sweatin’ the small stuff, I know I’m getting sick. How could a formerly strong woman who used to power through the worst illness or pain now struggle to deal with a little cold like it’s the man flu? Funny how one letter, say a W, can change everything.

Picture it, Sicily 1956. Oops, wrong show. (You youngins can Google Golden Girls. I’ll wait.)

Picture it: me, stuck in a hotel room feeling miserable. Annoyed at missing out on yet another night on the town, and pissed at Dan for dying and leaving me alone to take care of myself. Add in a sad song playlist and scrolling through old photos, and you get the gist. Yeah, I know. Dramatic. And for the record, the boohooing only makes the sniffles worse. But sometimes the pity party just has to happen so you can get on with your day.

Where’s the nurse?

I’m totally capable of taking care of myself, but miss having someone take care of me when I’m sick. Dan was a $hitty nurse but always made sure I had drinks and food. He’d check to make sure I didn’t have a fever. If I were really sick, he’d take me to the doctor. But mostly he’d wake me up to tell me that he missed me or to ask if I needed Jello or soup. HE’D WAKE ME UP FOR THAT! Damn, I miss how annoying Nurse Dan could be!

So there I was, lying in a Spanish hotel room feeling awful and being whiny about it. Times like this are rude reminders that I’m really alone and have to be the grown up in this relationship. I have to be the someone who takes care of me. Easy Peasey when it’s treating yourself to a stay in an Irish castle. It’s not as easy when you feel icky and have to doctor yourself in another country. Adulting 101. Check.

And with that, I’m reminded I do have someone who can bring me drinks and food. The lovely people at room service.

Oh, and it’s true one letter can change everything. Add one more W, and now I’m Wonder Woman.

XOXO,
The Wandering Widow
Live Now. Dream Big. Love Fierce.

P.S. I’m fine now. But for all my W’s, please take care of yourself. Preventing illness in the first place is the best way to avoid having to nurse yourself back to health.

Suicide and the Grieving

November 29, 2017 By Lisa Bain

A Friends and Family Post

DISCLAIMER: I am not a mental health professional. Please call 1-800-273-8255 if you are thinking about suicide, or believe someone else is.

My longtime readers have heard me lament that we are a grief phobic society. We are afraid to face death and its aftermath. So we force those feelings down deep, and we inadvertently push the grieving to hide instead of giving them a safe place to heal.

I’ve been open about hitting rock bottom after losing Dan (and believe me, I had a lot of counsel to keep it private). I know I had some very real angels looking out for me, or I wouldn’t be here today, with a breaking heart. The early months of losing your husband can be brutal. Over the last year and a half, I’ve attempted to describe how painful it can be, but words will never do it justice. And you know I don’t ever want you to understand because there is only one way you can.

But my heart is breaking because so many Widows feel utterly alone in their grief. This week I was part of a conversation in some of my Widow’s support groups where I learned so many of us had contemplated suicide or prayed to die, in the depths of our despair. That’s just one tiny group of Widows who were willing to share. What about all the rest of the grieving? It’s horrifying to contemplate.

Why am I sharing this? It’s not to bum you out or make you feel bad or ruin your holidays. And by no means am I saying that all Widows are suicidal. I’m asking you, friends and family of the grieving, to open a dialog. Share your feelings with your W, let her know she isn’t alone in her pain; that you loved her husband and miss him too, even though you can’t possibly understand how she’s feeling. I believe in my heart that the real reason many of you disappear or withdraw is that you want to shield your W and think that by hiding your grief at the loss of her husband, you are helping. You’re not. Not mentioning him, or pretending that he never existed, doesn’t fool our hearts into thinking we shouldn’t be so sad. It just makes us feel even more alone. The idea that our loved ones have moved on, leaving us behind in our grief, is so isolating. To think your kids have moved on and no longer grieve their Dad is awful. If you feel completely alone as you’re drowning in your grief, it’s hard to find a reason to continue to fight for air.

Whatever you do, don’t let her feel like she’s alone or that she needs to hide her grief. Don’t tell her it’s time to move on, or give her any more pressure to “get better” than she’s already putting on herself.

This last one is hard because I know how livid I would have been, but if you truly believe your W is at risk of suicide or accidental suicide (definition below), please talk to her about it. Call the number at the top of the post for suggestions on how to do that. My family and closest friends also knew how upset I would have been. Everyone was too afraid, so no one made that call for me. I was one of the lucky ones, and it turned out okay. Please don’t take that chance with your W.

XOXO,
The Wandering Widow
Live Now. Dream Big. Love Fierce.

Accidental Suicide

Widows have a higher rate of accidental suicide than other groups. This typically involves risky behavior that increases the likelihood of death by accident. Examples include: not wearing a seat belt, driving recklessly, mixing drugs and alcohol, failing to take prescribed medications, etc. Be on the lookout for these behaviors.

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Welcome Sleep Back Into Your Life After A Loss