For someone that writes about the grief spiral as much as I do, you'd think I'd be quick to recognize that shadowy arm as it wraps around me and sweeps me along to feel and heal the old traumas from a new perspective. You'd think that, and you'd be wrong. I'm blindsided just … [Read more...] about Grief Muscle Memory Runs Deep
Grief Recovery
Steep Ascents Require More Switchbacks
Happy 2022! I'm a bit late, but this is my first post of the year. When we left off in 2021, I told you about Project Dandelion, which I'm happy to report is alive and well. But those fluffy white seeds rarely fly in a straight line, and this dandelion is no exception. I … [Read more...] about Steep Ascents Require More Switchbacks
One More Day
Holy Hannah. It's been a hot minute. How ya doin? Today I am officially one day older than D was when he died. I know it's a strange thing to find hovering around in my awareness this far into my AfterLoss journey, but here it is, just hanging out. A few years ago, … [Read more...] about One More Day
Don’t Be Invisible (Can You See Me Now?)
A Keeping It Real Post Baggage (v. 2) Heaving my suitcase onto the bed I drop it on the floor instead, Oops, I forgot it’s full of laments for my dead. Why did I pack the weight of grief and fear when all I want to do is be light and clear? Running away and starting … [Read more...] about Don’t Be Invisible (Can You See Me Now?)
My Re-Birth Day
A Keeping It Real Post Last week, on D's deathiversary, I posted a photo on my social media and called it my Re-Birth Day. And while I don't feel the need to explain myself to the raised eyebrows, I want to. After D's first deathiversary, when I collapsed in a drunk, … [Read more...] about My Re-Birth Day
Year Four: Widowhood Is Still Teaching Me to Live My Best Life
A Keeping It Real Post Today marks four years since I began this unwilling journey called Widowhood. Four years? Really? It feels like both an eternity and a blink of an eye. And while things haven't turned out how I'd planned, it has been the best year ever. I'm getting … [Read more...] about Year Four: Widowhood Is Still Teaching Me to Live My Best Life